So my oldest daughter (age 4), Mikaiya starts her first day of Head Start tomorrow, and I am freaking out about it. Know one knows this, but I know this! She has only ever stayed at my moms or my dads house, never away with people she does not know. I have trust issues when it comes to my kids, the way I see it, nothing can go wrong if I am there to prevent it. I know that is fucked up but who cares, this is my blog! I am excited for her because I know she is ready and excited about going, she can't wait to meet new friends and all that jazz. It is going to be awesome......for her. I am going to worry myself to death, hopefully I can get use to her being away from me all day, I still have Jr. (age 2) to keep me company.
I can not wai tto see how they act oce they are separated. Jr. is going to love it. He is such a momma's boy, he is going to love the one on one time with mommy. Mika is already asking if he can come to school with her though, and he is gonna get bored being with me all the time.
My hopes for tomorrow are that I get no calls from the school, she comes home happy, and that she wants to go back the next day. That is all I can hope for I guess. Oh yeah, and for her to say mommy I missed you when I pick her up, I think that would make it a successful first day. We will see what happens and how it goes. I know one thing is for sure I am going to be a complete basket case by the time I pick her up tomorrow! Have a wonderful evening.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Love me or Hate me, It is all the same to me!
This is my first post and I am sure to offend. Not necessarily my goal, but inevitable none the less. I guess you can say I have a pretty fucked way of looking at life. I see all the good and the bad, where as other choose to only see the good and live in this fantasy world where all is as it seems. I consider myself to be a very smart and misunderstood person. Certain persons believe that because I do not stick up for myself or seemingly let someone walk over me that I am a weak person. I pick and choose my battles and just because I allow you to believe that you are better than me does not make it so. I have learned in my 27 years on this earth that I am here to please one person and that is myself. I allow certain persons the opportunity to think they hurt me not because I am weak, but because I know that karma is a bitch and those who hurt me are going to be the weak ones, not myself. When it comes back on you, you will regret all. There once was a time when I acted out carelessly, do i regret it? NO. But did I learn form it? ABSOLUTELY! Can I say the same for a majority of the people I have met in my life? No! Sometimes it pisses me off when people just do not get the easy stuff. You know, treat others how you would like to be treated, do not kill, do not judge, clean your house, take care of your kids, and recycle, the simple common sense shit that everyone should know from birth. Really makes me want to smack people, but that I can not do, for I have made a vow in my life to never intentionally cause another being harm and this I will stick to.
There is one other issue that really grips my ass, and that is liars! I can not stand them and do not need them in my life. If you are not man nor woman enough to tell me the truth, then do not even open your mouth to me. i promise to show you the same courtesy!For those who do not understand this means.....If you do not feel like coming by the house, say so. Do not make up some shit like you are sick or you have to do this or that. Grow a pair and say I do not want to come by. Another example, you wanna fuck, but you also wanna fuck everyone else too, tell me that. Do not go all out and say that you love me and only me. Does not mean you are still gonna get it, but the honesty is still amusing. Oh by the way I never said my blog post were going to be nice, so if you can not handle this, I suggest you get out now. IF you are cool, then let me personally thank you for your maturity.
OK, so for those of you who are still here with me. I consider myself to be a very hard worker. If I am given a task, it will be completed in the most efficient and precise way as possible. I am not satisfied with less than par work and no I do not like golf.I have always been above average in every aspect of mental capability, and yes I am proud of that. I am also proud of the fact that I have 2 children who have inherited my smart-ass genes. While I pride myself in the knowledge that I have, I in no way think of myself as a genius. I am no good in chemistry and rocket science stuff. Have never claimed to want to be an astronaut but I know what I need to know about this earth and the space that surrounds it. I am no whiz when it comes to physics, but I know all about cause and effect. I will be the first person to tell you if I do not know something. I had rather look less smart than be a dumb ass for supporting the wrong answers. And to those of you who offend your causes and answers to the death even when you know you are wrong, just because you are too good to say you are wrong, well you are idiots! It is time for some of you guys to wake the fuck up, grow the fuck up, and smarten the fuck up. No I am not perfect, But I am not afraid to admit my faults, learn from them, and become a better person in the end.
That is all I have to say for now but you can be sure that I will be back, posting more shit that is guaranteed to piss off a few people. Hope you enjoy my babbling!
There is one other issue that really grips my ass, and that is liars! I can not stand them and do not need them in my life. If you are not man nor woman enough to tell me the truth, then do not even open your mouth to me. i promise to show you the same courtesy!For those who do not understand this means.....If you do not feel like coming by the house, say so. Do not make up some shit like you are sick or you have to do this or that. Grow a pair and say I do not want to come by. Another example, you wanna fuck, but you also wanna fuck everyone else too, tell me that. Do not go all out and say that you love me and only me. Does not mean you are still gonna get it, but the honesty is still amusing. Oh by the way I never said my blog post were going to be nice, so if you can not handle this, I suggest you get out now. IF you are cool, then let me personally thank you for your maturity.
OK, so for those of you who are still here with me. I consider myself to be a very hard worker. If I am given a task, it will be completed in the most efficient and precise way as possible. I am not satisfied with less than par work and no I do not like golf.I have always been above average in every aspect of mental capability, and yes I am proud of that. I am also proud of the fact that I have 2 children who have inherited my smart-ass genes. While I pride myself in the knowledge that I have, I in no way think of myself as a genius. I am no good in chemistry and rocket science stuff. Have never claimed to want to be an astronaut but I know what I need to know about this earth and the space that surrounds it. I am no whiz when it comes to physics, but I know all about cause and effect. I will be the first person to tell you if I do not know something. I had rather look less smart than be a dumb ass for supporting the wrong answers. And to those of you who offend your causes and answers to the death even when you know you are wrong, just because you are too good to say you are wrong, well you are idiots! It is time for some of you guys to wake the fuck up, grow the fuck up, and smarten the fuck up. No I am not perfect, But I am not afraid to admit my faults, learn from them, and become a better person in the end.
That is all I have to say for now but you can be sure that I will be back, posting more shit that is guaranteed to piss off a few people. Hope you enjoy my babbling!
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